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south park fans after realizing that them being ‘inclusive’ in fics and headcanons is them just rooting characters in stereotypes and they’re actually being insensitive as fuck
#except they’ll never know#because they’re mostly in denial#south park#skipper speaks#eric cartman#stan marsh#kyle broflovski#kenny mccormick#butters stotch#tweek tweak#craig tucker#clyde donovan#tolkien black#jimmy valmer#wendy testaburger#bebe stevens#heidi turner
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can we start placing bets about the live action voltron movie. everyone download draftkings right now
#shitpost#voltron#I’m pretty sure they’re adapting the original anime so like who knows what’s going to happen#I feel like they’re not going to make Allura a Paladin and they’ll like tease it in the lead up to the movie but they won’t actually do it#they’ll probably save making Allura a Paladin in the sequel that will never happen because this movie is going to die at the box office#I think they’re going to make all the paladins white or white passing with maybe the exception of hunk#I do think they’ll make Allura a woman of color but the vibes are going to be soooo weird I am already praying for her future actress#also I guarantee there will be romantic tension between Allura and keith and then conservatives are going to post rage bait articles#about them being a mixed race couple
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I think it’d be really, really funny if the Civilians of Twilight Town keep trying to guess what Roxas, Xion, Lea, and Isa’s deal is, trying to fit them into SOME sort of even remotely traditional family structure and end up with, like, six different competing rumors even before the polite blonde girl who divides her time between “the old abandoned mansion, which they guess she owns?” and “nowhere in the area.”
And then the visiting scientist.
And the other visiting scientist.
And the scientists’ apparent son (other son?), who spends his entire trip talking with Pence about something they’ve clearly been collaborating on for at least a year despite the fact that no one’s ever seen him before.
Xion introduces a boy who looks nothing like her, currently lives with his family (not, she specifies, her family,) and has no relationship with Roxas or Lea whatsoever. Apparently they’re both the children (okay, he says creations, but Even’s an odd one) of one of the scientists. Technically, they say. They look nothing alike. They’re pretty sure he doesn’t live with the scientist, either. He does know Namine (presumed to be the scientists’ mutual daughter) but they say they���re not siblings point blank. Someone crosses Xion and Namine being sisters off a whiteboard, then considers and puts a question mark there.
Roxas’s incredibly obvious identical twin shows up and they claim to be half-brothers. Roxas will skateboard away from all followup questions. On another trip, he’ll bring a third boy who introduces himself as “the other half of (Ven’s) heart” and then immediately refers to Roxas, Xion, and Ven (but not Lea or the other boy, who nonetheless knows him) as his siblings. He claims to have been born at the dawn of time and just after the worlds shattered and also sixteen years ago. (Vanitas knows exactly what he is doing and is THRIVING off the chaos.)
Based off similar hair colors, her apparent dislike of Lea, and sheer desperation, half the town is convinced that Aqua and Isa are siblings and she sided with him during the breakup. There’s no consensus about how Terra fits into this. (Isa’s not correcting them. About any of this. It’s not worth it.)
Seifer gets back from a journey of self-discovery and asks who the newbies are and gets shown eight different, mutually-contradictory conspiracy boards in the form of family tree/relationship charts. Lauriam and Elrena have been the source of multiple schisms among the gossip mill.
By the time Sora shows up again even Hayner, Pence and Olette are having trouble keeping everything straight, and they actually know the whole story.
#kingdom hearts#long post#note that whether or not any given professed relationship is ACTUALLY how they consider each other should be ambiguous#(except for Ven and Vanitas and Even and Xion and Repliku which are obviously canonically accurate but being interpreted as not literal)#and any assumed relationship by the town is equally unreliable#Roxas and Ven know they can’t get away with being UNrelated but refuse to say they’re twins#it would only raise more questions at their birthdays#Sora brings Strelitzia too. Sora doesn’t know Lauriam’s name. Ven clearly knows them both. Chaos reigns.#the TT Teen Trio figure it’s none of their business whether any given group are siblings or dating or both#it’s Heart Stuff. that gets complicated even before the time travel and giving each other your body and replicas and everything else#if someone wants them to know then they’ll tell them. except Vanitas. but then someone else will tell them.#oh also Seifer DEFINITELY met Leon during that journey of self-discovery and it was a Whole Mutual Thing#but that goes without saying and he will never mention it to the rest of the town as it won’t come up…#up until some of the Radiant Garden crew visit and recognize him.
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There really aren’t words to describe the simple queer joy that is lounging on the couch shirtless after top surgery.
#queer#nonbinary#top surgery#the simple queer joy of going for a run after top surgery#the simple queer joy of flopping in bed after top surgery#the simple queer joy of treating your own chest like a drum kit after top surgery#it’s like breathing. it’s like getting to breathe for the first time in 20 years.#I love my scars and I love my silly ease within my body and I love how#even if I still don’t look quite like I feel I should in other ways (hips face lack of muscle in my arms)#I FEEL like I feel like I always should have#and the sense of home within my body is more enormous and somehow simpler than I could ever have words for#though fuck knows I’ll keep trying#because it’s important. if not for me then for kids who think they’ll never get here#you can. you will. it’s exceptional and you deserve to feel exceptional in your own bones
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For any of my mutuals, please DM me if there’s an OC of mine you want. Just in case something happens to me.
#I have to wait until after the 19th#then I can finally be done#the 19th of this month is my friend’s birthday and I intend to stick around for that#I was already planning but I can’t do this anymore so I moved the date closer#there’s gonna be so much I’ll miss but it’ll be okay#i guess it’s convenient I never really had a bucket list except to go to CalArts#it’s sad I won’t be doing that ig#I’m sorry to you all for even making this public#I guess I thought I needed to tell you guys so if I never post again you know why#I need to tell some of my online friends my address tho so they can come and take stuff from my room#but I’m worried they’ll call an ambulance#I’m gonna miss this all#or I guess I won’t#it’ll be like sleeping from what I’ve read#tw sui ideation#suic1de#tw suicide#tw sui talk#I’m tryna add as many warnings as I can for you guys#tw death
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I remember in a previous post you mentioned Ryker had a boyfriend but they broke up do to reasons. Will we ever get more on that?
Yup! Ryker has had a boyfriend before and they did sadly break up. (They were both giants) I was originally planning on writing a little one shot of everything, but I barely have time to write now TwT so I’ll just answer it here! :D (it’s a tiny bit long)
Yes, Ryker has had a boyfriend before Nathan! It was a very unhealthy relationship between the two, with the other not reciprocating feelings for Ryker and when they had, it made Ryker very uncomfortable. (Sexual stuff, they were very manipulative, uncaring) The two had been dating for a couple months, almost a year, and eventually Rykers boyfriend had enough of Ryker. They complained that he was getting tired of Ryker bothering him and that he was just too touchy (hugs, little kisses, holding hands nothing sexual) for his taste. Even though Ryker was usually quiet and caring and didn’t even bother him.
So the guy breaks up with Ryker and leaves him in a little mess. Ryker has a hard time getting back into things and finds out his ex moved somewhere else. But of course that break up changed him, which is why Ryker is always so cautious with touching people, especially Nathan since he didn’t want him to be uncomfortable (little does he know Nathan is touch starved and loves all the hugs, kisses, and being with Ryker as much as possible)
So pretty much Rykers love language is physical touch! He just likes knowing the feeling of someone being there for him and same goes for the opposite as well!
If you would like me to write out a part please let me know! I’ll try my best to get it out as fast as possible if you would like to see a one shot!
Thank you for the ask anon! :D
#Duck asks#I love this question#I just never knew if I should write it or not#So you guys can tell me :D#Pretty much Ryker has always been this way except wants to so badly just cup Nathan in his hands without thinking he’s doing something wron#Aghhh#he just wants someone who’ll let him hold them (literally)#But he’s too scared they’ll say something about it#He just likes knowing the feeling that someone is there for him TwT#Especially after his parents#Of course he had his siblings tho#Ooo but I loved answering this sm#Thank you for the ask anon!#I kinda wanna know who you are cause I’ve been getting a lot of good asks :)#Mmm feeding my creative brain with these asks#Oc: Ryker#love you guys ❤️
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You know who Tommy reminds me of that it was bothering me sm that I couldn’t place it but then I remembered this scene?
Rick from Casablanca
Like Tommy says this to chimney verbatim in that one scene
He calls buck (his love interest) “kid” just like Rick does to Ilsa (his love interest)
Even personality wise something about it fits like the cool guy exterior, the struggle to be good,the sort of air of unphased energy if you get what I mean, etc
Anyways that got me thinking and if the bucktommy break up is something bittersweet like Rick and Ilsa then I would love it:
HE EVEN DOES THE MOTHERFUCKING CHIN GRAB^^^^
Like imagine this if buddie does go canon instead of Rick letting Ilsa go for the greater good of the world/politics
#my old movie obsessed ass back at it again just when you thought my reign of terror with the it’s a wonderful life references was over#911 abc#eddie diaz#911 fox#evan buck buckley#911onfox#I mention bucktommmy so do I tag that? I’m not sure someone advise 😭😭#buddie#911#tommy kinard#evan buckley#also just realised some people may not know the context of Casablanca or it’s famous break up scene#so ilsla is married to victor who’s a political fugitive fighting nazis but she thought he was dead at one point so she gets with Rick#she finds out victor is alive and leaves Rick#she never told Rick any of this#she shows up with victor in ricks bar victor needs to escape cos Nazi shit#that breakup scene is Rick telling her to go to victor because she’ll regret it if she doesn’t and that they’ll always have Paris (aka the#time they had together)#911 spec#911 speculation#except it’s crack and I’m pretty sure exams are rotting my brain and I’m speaking nonsense#god I love Casablanca
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people who used to watch lesbian youtubers as a teen…how did you feel when you found out arielle scarcella is now a racist, transphobic republican
#very baffling to me how some lgbtq+ people align themselves with the people who would HAPPILY come for their rights next#once they’ve taken trans rights — they’ll come for the rights you as a lesbian have#and once they’ve taken your rights as a lesbian then they’ll come for your rights as a woman#it’s a slippery slope except the slope never ends#it just keeps on sloping#not that self preservation should be the reason you have compassion for others but like…#idk just on a basic primal level it feels like you should KNOW it’s a bad idea to side with the oppressor
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Honestly kinda hate it when white queer ppl go “you just hate me bc I’m trans!” and then you look at what ppl are mad at them for and BOOM that mf been racist for a decade
#what is there to say#what is there to do#some ppl never learn#like yes always be aware of potential transphobia and transmisogyny but#also#if 95% of black queer twt doesn’t fuck with you and you and your friends share a blocklist w/ e/o that’s mostly black queer ppl…#i don’t know#it’s been years and I keep seeing the same pattern except now they’ll sometimes co-opt terms that describe racial discrimination#and still use them wrong
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[ID: panels from chapter 256 of “yona of the dawn”. in the first panel, zeno stands up; his neck and robes are heavily stained with blood, and some of it is splattered on his cheek; he says, “i tried all i could to die…”. in the next panel, the phonomime “drip” is written twice in the corner, indicating that it’s coming from somewhere out of frame but zeno has yet to react to it. in the following panel, the dripping continues and he turns towards it. in the next panel, which is taking up most of the page, he stares at the source of the sound in horror. the final panel shows the roof of the palace; the sky above it is dark and cloudy, with sunlight beginning to break through the clouds. end ID.]
the dripping from out of frame, the slow turn, the hard cut……horror writers WISH they had a shoujo mangaka’s skill to invoke pure unadulterated dread
#u wanna know what i think the sound is? :) (<- was right about zeno not being able to kill himself and now my ego is massive)#i think the other dragons got pushed out of the chalice along with zeno and now they’re badly injured and bleeding#(hence the dripping)#idk what could horrify zeno at this point except being faced with the realization that his plan backfired not against HIM#bc he’s tried to off himself before and it never worked. but against the people he cares about and wanted to save#(in a deeply fucked up way and without asking if they even want that but he did want to save them and not just himself)#obviously as the optimistic theories guy i think they’ll all be okay#like. the dragon gods’ protection clearly hasn’t completely perished from the mausoleum AND riri’s running around administering aid outside#i don’t think they’ll die. but i do think kusanagi will continue trying to scare us with the possibility#anyway. what was i talking about#oh right! horror sequences in shoujo manga always go so hard i love it#akayona
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Poor Yuuta 😆
What's he gonna do when someone tells him Todo punched His Boy™️ through a wall
And really, what's with every person ripping of their shirt or being shirtless while fighting Megumi. Sukuna is the worst offender of course, and their's also Todo, even Mahoraga didn't have a shirt. We're obviously excluding Toji.
Also, being offended at a low bounty is so Sukuna 🤣 That entire post was hilarious, especially the tags.
The other second years decide that they need to shield Yuuta from the knowledge that this ever happened because if he did he’d kill todo and then feel bad about killing him and it’s just be enormously inconvenient to maki specifically who would have to hear about it.
They also decide that this is immediately a mission doomed for failure because Inumaki’s a spineless simp who will absolutely spill the beans to his boy (his boy being Yuuta).
So they tell Todo that if he values his life (doubtful—maki has sincere doubts as to its value and feels even todo must know that) he’ll find a border and get over it because Yuuta will break his fucking spine if he finds out someone beat the shit out of Megumi specifically as a way to goad Yuuta himself. Fuck around, find out. Yuuta’s not letting anyone use megumi against him and he’s willing to make an example to ensure future safety.
Sukuna feels the Zenin were on point with the brat’s valuation (if not too generous) but he’s in here too and he’s a fucking gold standard of targets. What the fuck why is the bounty so low. He’s the king of curses and he’s getting the valuation of an idiot high schooler with a crush. There’s no respect nowadays.
Yuuji has to hear a lot about how the price on his head is not good enough for Sukuna.
#sukuna at three am the night before a mission: i am nightmare incarnate they could BANKRUPT themselves to kill me and it would not be enough#what the fuck is wrong with sorcerers these days. brat you want to fix the in-law problem and you let me out on the Zenin compound. ten#minutes. they’ll see who’s worth a mere /800000 yen/. fucking unprofessional is what it is.#yuuji is somewhat tempted he cannot lie#the Zenin stress his boyfriend out a lot okay#he sees how much they can get to him. and also like. he doesn’t know the details. but he can read between the lines enough to know they’ve#hurt him. how bad WOULD it be to let Sukuna raze a few buildings to the ground#yuuji has a very pretty boyfriend who will let him /hold his hand/ and /kiss him/ and legitimately life could not be better were it not for#the active attempts on his life. those. those are a downer.#very pretty boyfriend. who’s smarter than him. can summon dogs at will. literally the gold standard cannot imagine how lucky he is but there#HAS to be a fly in the ointment and it HAS to be his lunatic family#the thing is yuuji overwhelmingly feels murder is wrong EXCEPT when you trigger him in which case he’ll kill you with his bare hands#re: mahito#and like. he’s getting there with the Zenin. he’s getting there.#the issue is that makis a fucking vault and Yuuta this impossibly beautiful and perfect son of a bitch in Africa who they’ve never met so#they can’t interrogate him. and inumaki is. challenging. to interrogate#pandas the fucking weak link tho and nobara and yuuji have figured out that the Zenin did something seriously fucked not too long ago#they don’t want to invade Megumi’s privacy but he’s Their Boy and they’ll cut bitches over him#yuuji shares a wall with megumi and sometimes it’s really obviously he had a bad nightmare he won’t talk about#but he will tell him when it wasn’t about sukuna ripping out Yuuji’s heart so he won’t feel guilty#and eventually yuuji just sort of pieced it together that it was about the Zenin#not to be dramatic but Yuuji and nobara will kill people for megumi#why does OKKOTSU YUUTA get to know about their boy but not YUUJI who’s LITERALLY DATING HIM#panda: well Yuuta was right in the middle of everything what with how he— *horrified silence* I’ve said too much#todos no help because he also thinks Yuuta is an impossibly beautiful and perfect bastard and it does not help yuujis morale#he’s on yuujis side of course#but if there is anyone who COULD come even close to his brother who is the sparkling pinnacle of existence it would be Okkotsu Yuuta#no one can tell if todos in love with Yuuta#like obviously his heart and soul belong to takada but it gets hella gay sometimes when he talks about Yuuta#he doesn’t know what this assless boy has done to bewitch such beautiful men and it torments him
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went to the beach w kp & 4 other indian friends & 3 of us had NEVER surfed before girl WHEW it’s SO fun literally only 20quid to rent a wetsuit & board & i fucking smashed my toes on the sand so much, but also we 1) got the wrong tickets so we got off 1 stop early 2) went to find a bus & the bus that was supposed to be 15 min turned into an HOUR 3) on our way to find a bus back everyone’s phones are dying or dead bc it took us 3hrs longer to get there, cigarettes are out 4) all of the shops in town are closed & the town seems to have ONLY a tesco extra & 1 off license that sells a PACK FOR 15.65 A PACK WHICH IS FUCKING CRIMINAL ITS CHEAPER TO BUY IT FROM TESCO ARE U INSANE 5) the bus back to the other town kept skipping us bc the bus stop wasn’t the ACTUAL bus stop - i had 1 bowl since literally 11a & we got back at fucking 11p 😭😭😭
#diary#i was honestly abt to strangle EVERYBODY#‘do u have a cigarette’ ‘where’s ur vape’ ‘where are we going’ ‘which bus is it’ ‘do u have a ___’ ‘did u bring ___’ girl what am i DORA w#the magic fuckin BACKPACK ??? while ur UP MY ASS dig around & SEE IF SMTHGS IN THERE 😭😭😭😭#i literally broke sobriety again bc i was just#girl i was so agitated & there was 1 TRAIN LEFT BEFORE 11P so we needed to get the 2ND TO LAST BUS OF THE DAY#i deadass was like ‘if we miss that train i will make sure u all go blind’ ‘did u bring a knife’ ‘I DONT NEED 1’#AKSJAKSKAKKSJSKSSJAKJSKAHSKSHDLASKAKDLA#LIKE U BITCHES SMOKED ALL MY CIGARETTES MY VAPES DEAD MY PHONES DYING UR ALL DRUNK IM GOING TO KILL YALL 😭😭😭😭😭#<- me knowing i could never be a parent#tbh if i caught my kid smoking a cig id make em do the ol ‘im going to sit down in front of u w a fresh box of cigarettes & make u finish#the box or pass out’#YES IM STRICT#i think it’s so funny ok unrelated but like they’ll speak hindi & i’ve just#learned it through being around them kind of like i can’t speak it except for some word u know like matachot etc but i’ll Understand the#Context & what’s being Said#ASLKALSKALSKLAKSLAKSLAKSLA like while waiting for the train back 1 of them was talking abt me being a fool to the others - literally they’re#all indian & i had walked away so when i walked back he was still talkin but then i started giggling bc i knew he was talkin abt me & how i#pinched a bit of the kebab to throw to the seagull bc he offered it to me & i needed to bait the seagull w something & i pinched & tossed &#& he looked at me like 😦 bhenchod ! & then the seagull came over & i was like :D hi bestie <3333 but then when i started giggling after i#walked back he was like ‘what the fuck does he just know hindi now’#it makes me laugh so fucking HARD 😭😭😭😭😭 LIKE FUCK U I LIKE TO PARTICPATE IN COVERSATION IDC ABT LANGUAGE#like i’ve been surrounded by yall for the past#girl it’s been like a year i don’t even talk to british ppl or americans#ALSKALSKALSKALKSLAKSLALSLA MESS ! i love to slavsquat & kp hates it bc he’s like ‘we’re in the uk why are u sitting like this’ bc he thinks#it’s ’too indian’ ALSKALSKALSKALJSKAKDLA 😭😭😭😭😭 this hips were made for sitting#we’re definitely going to go back bc it’s SO CLOSE IF WE ACTUALLY USE THE TRANSPORT PROPERLY ITS ONLY LIKE AN HOUR OR SO COMMUTE EACH WAY#bring lunch whatever#i’m exhausted but also socially like bro i had to leave the donner place just to walk around the block for SOME QUIET#i’ve just been sososososo busy LOSING MY MIND
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Anons ✨
#lou tisdale anon: unconventional way to get informed i guess but if it worked good for them#‘I’ve really appreciated all of the information you’ve been sharing on here’ anon#a bit offensive you come at me talking about coincidental choices and intentional decisions#using your building as a reference… Guys cmon. At this point you should know im not stupid lol anyway I deleted the tags because#since I noticed a few people have written the same thing as you#usually the background choice falls in an intentional decision but as you say it’s a wild guess#that’s why I only said ‘I hope it’s not intentional if it is yikes’#‘don’t have any doubts about harry’ anon: we’ll never know what they support#and for once I’m glad they won’t be speaking up like their usual because#I’m already disappointed of what side they would be on this#have you seen what his friends share? have you seen what his mom shares? they can be zionist on main without ripercussions#‘seriously wouldn’t know what to if he supported them’ I would unstan right away. god thing is they’ll never be talking about politics#(except Harry sporadically finding new way to have kore people register in the us to vote democrats#and eventually forget about what is happening in rest of the world. firstly like all celebrities do secondly like everyone does.)#you take care of your little garden first#my opinion my ideology and my political view don’t depend on them#if I don’t agree with what some artist/celebrity says#ill stop interacting with them#there’s tone of music and art being made by people#who care about the world and want to see people leaving in peace and with equal rights#it’s not hard to be human you know? at times if you’re afraid to show support to the oppressed#you’re helping the oppressors with oppression and segregation#moreover when the oppression is not about you in the slightest (general you not you anon)#it only means 1. you don’t care enough to advocate 2. you have found different solutions to help (lol)#3. you don’t want to take sides (inferno canto III for me)#4. you don’t want to let know what side you’re on (sigh)
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thalia/shri’iia in my oc setting (not in bg3) are soulmates in a sense that in every universe they’re always bound to meet or come across each other. sometimes they form a relationship sometimes they don’t but the point is they will always cross paths…!!!!!! and if a relationship is formed, thalia’s heart will always break bc of shri’iia and it’s either an intentional or unintentional thing. the heartbreak can be both major or minor too - it could be like a soul wrenching thing or just a small accident, either way, that’s like the two things that will always happen.
#I actually have like a small side story for them in my own oc universe (eden inspo)#that I do want to develop !!!! bc it’s like a prologue for the big overall story#like I’ve always been thinking of making a prologue for it just to introduce the world and all that#but I can never figure out the characters that are in it. I know the setting but I haven’t made anyone yet until these two came along#and I like them a lot so now they’re my own ocs lol#also I have like an au for them in bg3 too like post game where shri’iia goes in another adventure and she meets thalia…#and the soulmateism is soulmating and all that#hmmm now I actually wanna draw eden verse shri’iia and Tahlia bc they’ll look pretty different#or maybe they won’t look too different they’ll just have natural looking skin tones instead of blue and grey lol#everything else is the same except for the robot parts…
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themes of loss and suffering :3 the inability to find value in himself as a person alone so he places it in how he impacts others and they’re all slowly pulling away and disappearing no matter how hard he tries to be good and do what’s right!! no matter if he represses himself, hides but accepts himself, or is proud of his sexuality ti’ll never be enough because he hasn’t even begun to confront the root of the issue which is that he refuses to see himself as worthwhile on his own and as he continues to lose everybody he found himself in he will be left alone to ultimately crumble and disappear unless other people can finally help him understand that they love him regardless of whether he’s good or not, whether he’s helpful or not, whether he takes care of them or they take care of him!!! it’ll all come to a head when he inevitably goes missing and his friends and family have to prove for the first time in their lives that mike is invaluable even when they’re fighting or have become distanced and the only person who can man that front is will byers himself as nobody else has ever made mike feel good for simply being himself and nobody else understands how deeply mike struggles with that :)
#cant wait for the ouchies of a lifetime#when mike is ready to give his own life part 3 except these bitches go no!!!! hell yeah#in turn for choosing to save mike he actually does have things that can help#but they didnt know that#thats not why they’ll save him#and ultimately every type of love is what’ll defeat henry because he never had an ounce of any of it#mike wheeler
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Romantic/dating anxiety is definitely a thing (to me). I just steed into the dating world for the first time last year at the ripe age of 26 and when I tell you I’ve been anxious every time I’ve matched with someone/received a message complimenting me before we can even have a conversation/agreed to a date… it’s intense to say the least but I believe in us!
Definitely definitely a thing, like I’ve managed to give myself a decent stomachache just by overthinking this since it happened.
I don’t know what to do lmao because I have 0 experience, and like I just texted my best friend about, I shoot down every person that ever asks for my number or shows interest in me but then I also literally am always like…. looking for someone to be interested in me, but also like as soon as I know for sure they’re interested I don’t want them to be, and also I think I just feel awkward if the person is younger than me, so like when one of my coworkers clearly had a crush on me but he was like 5 or 6 years younger than me so I felt that was weird, and then this guy I don’t even know how old he is either so like that feels fucking awkward to me because nobody ever thinks I am my age, which right now I’m 27 😭 and the other day a girl I work with thought I was 23, which is a compliment but also like I don’t want to be in a relationship with someone that much younger than me 😭😭
#asks#I definitely have social anxiety to some extent though#like literally even the idea of going and hanging out with my best friend half the time I want to cancel and we’ve known each other for#like 12 years by this point if not actually 13 years#and then there’s my friends I’ve actually made at work I always get nervous to hang out with them even tho I see them all the time at work#and I genuinely like them as people#but I don’t fucking know 😭😭 I don’t know what I want and I’ve tied myself into a ball of anxiety so I just want to go home and shower and#curl up in bed except that I also had kinda made plans with my mom to go to target today#ALSO though like if I do respond and if this guy does ask me out on a date this week would be a good time#because since I live at home and since my parents (specifically my mom) are kinda overprotective and since I’ve never been into dating I#feel like they’ll ask me a million questions if I mention a guy or going on a date with a guy#and they’re gonna be gone this week so if I was to go out it would be the perfect chance to go without having to answer questions#but honestly 😂😂 that makes me nervous too#I need to text him back because since he’s a regular and since I work regular hours he’s probably got a general idea of the hours I work#which is also mildly weird to me#I overthink everything btw#I’m stressed 😭😭
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